1/31/09

The Magic Bean


Oh yeah.

We've all heard about Jack and the beanstalk.

So lets say one day you find a magic bean. Or maybe someone gave it to you, maybe your mom, maybe your dad, maybe your neighbor! What's important is they tell you its a magic bean.

And you believe them.

So what happens next?


You believe in that bean. 



When it doesn't grow like the beanstalk you expect it to, you shrug it off. Well, maybe it needs time! When it doesn't allow you to climb to the skies and meet giants, you defend it. Maybe you need to sprinkle some magic water on it! Or maybe you needed special soil for the bean. You even consider that the weather isn't right, maybe thats why the bean isn't growing like a magic bean should grow.

But you never blame the bean.


Somehow you believe that whatever shortcomings that you go through is entirely your fault; but at the slightest growth of the tiny beanstalk, you believe it to be magic.


In reality,

The bean has only as much 'magic' as you will it to have.

It only grows magically as high as you let it.

If any other person were to see that beanstalk of yours, they wouldn't call it magical. No doubt about that.



Instead of you benefiting from the 'magic bean', 


You have become it's defense.




Well you can keep your magic bean. By all means.

Go ahead. I have nothing against it.



But maybe I've stopped believing in mine.

1/27/09

Somethings is seriously wrong with me.. I'm usually not like this.. This has never happened to me..

 I've never felt this way until now..

(Well not exactly now, few minutes ago)


I was sipping my coffee, nagging at my mom (and vice versa)







When the feeling came







It was a feeling long forgotten since kindergarten

A feeling dulled during my schooling years

A feeling diminished during upper secondary

A feeling extinguished in Form 6

(By now if u haven't figured out i'm crapping ur as smart as the averagely intelligent amoeba)


The feeling that..

There's work to be done!!






Thats when it dawned on me..






OMG
 I"M TURNING INTO A NERD!

Why

Why, do you always do this to me?
Why, couldn't you just see through me?
How come, you act like this
Like you just don't care at all

Do you expect me to believe I was the only one to fall?
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even though you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

Hey, listen to what we're not saying
Let's play, a different game than what we're playing
Try, to look at me and really see my heart

Do you expect me to believe I'm gonna let us fall apart?
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even when you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

So go and think about whatever you need to think about
Go on and dream about whatever you need to dream about
And come back to me when you know just how you feel, you feel
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even though you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me

It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together? 
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

1/23/09

Happy CNY

It's not a time for quarreling 


Cheer up! CNY is here!

1/19/09

Mid January Blues




Mid January seems to be a ripe time for couples to fight..

Few of my friends started serious arguments with their partners, and then it hit me too!


So here's a small second apology to Vern for our misunderstanding =)



I really hope the best for everyone else out there: 
Especially those who are already pregnant with each other's saliva =P
(Ignore this joke if you don't understand)





Valentines day is just around the corner!

1/18/09

Voice on the Radio

Last night I fell in love with a stranger
Behind the glass house he came walking out the backdoor
Into a crowd of screaming girls calling his name

I never saw it coming, the way a voice can make me feel
And I fear that I am falling
I should be old enough to know
Not to fall in love with the voice on the radio

So here I stand fighting what I feel for you
Torn between what reason says and how I really feel
And here I stand, wondering what to say to you
Hoping that you feel the same, the same as I do


He's in a rock band with a voice like an angel
And eyes of a raven sky
And suddenly I find myself twelve years old again
Dreaming of you

But who am I kidding to even think that you might see me
It's in the stars that girls like me
And boys like you were never meant to be


So here I stand fighting what I feel for you
Torn between what reason says and how I really feel
And here I stand, wondering what to say to you
Hoping that you feel the same, the same as I do


Would you be scared if I told you I like you
And would you run if I told you I love you

Cuz here I stand fighting what I feel for you
Torn between what reason says and how I really feel
And here I stand, wondering what to say to you
Hoping that you feel the same, the same
As I do, as I do, as I do


I never saw it coming the way a voice can make me feel
And I fear that I am falling
I should be old enough to know
Not to fall in love with the voice on the radio

1/15/09

Friends =)

Can taking a nap at the expense of Tim's leg






Me trying on Can's specs




LY reliving her childhood days





USM elections are here! And guess who's standing!

Not me la.. just some guy with the name "Siva"







Somehow they always end up at Forever 21..

To do their posing








Think wearing those specs lowers ur IQ?




Theory proven.






Peggy begging from Nelson   o.0






Princess Tim with Hui Ling






Tesco at 12am =)






***


Just to embarrass Tim a bit more..

We went tesco till midnight..

So Can's younger sister was going..

So Tim was extra excited about it..

So we decided to fake and say instead of coming from Sarawak,

That he was an English guy who came back from England after studies..



So we gave him a new name!


Thomas Catherine Howard III

(T.C. Hiew)

1/12/09

I should be studying now

But I'm going shopping =)


GURNEY PLAZA NEW WING..

HERE I COME!!!!!!

1/10/09

The Baron's Code

20-21-5     19-5-5-25-9-14-7    9-6     13-8-20-8-1-25

7-9-18-25    12-2-8    13-1-11-5    9-20     21-1-18-17    20-2    15-5     19-1-9-20-21-19-8-25






I hate durians =.=

1/9/09

YKT 112


This is happening now =)

1/7/09

Things you'd never expect me to do

Oh wow! I can finally take a breather. I've been pretty busy these few days. Not busy doing important things, but just busy. Not busy to the Prime Minister's standards. But still busy.

I've also been doing a lot of things you'd never imagine me doing! I mean thats what campus life is all about right?

For starters I've been learning Cantonese! Please don't test me when I come back but I can now survive with cantonese! (I know how to say lets eat and where's the toilet). It's been a tough challenge for my poor room mate who teaches me!

Next up, I've been doing a lot of reading. A whole lot. I've read a novel called the magician's guild by Trudi Canavan (in 2 days) and then a write up about sociology and now I'm reading a thriller novel called 'Gideon'. I find novels a nice, long lost way of relaxing. I used to borrow books from the library back in primary.

I've also started reading the newspapers!

Also, DENG DENG DENG.. I went dancing. Hahah! Not in a disco, but in a dance lesson! We learnt samba or something.. I was such a block of wood I tell you! Ok.. No more details on this one.



I'll be busy this weekend with scuba! AND tomorrow my gang will be wearing formal to class just for the sake of it!

1/6/09

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 

KOK HOE!!

1/4/09

For the PKA readers



Cheers =)

1/2/09

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Yea I'm 1 day late.. Let me explain.

31/12

5.00pm - Boring mass com class

7.00pm - Discussion about new year plans

8.00pm - Rush back to my room to get dressed/ bathed

9.00pm - Met up at Uni's gate, waiting for the van we rented

11.00pm - Van still never came, So a few of us countdown by ourselves outside KFC o.0

1/1

12.10am - Van came. Sienz. So we hopped in and went to Upper Penang Road.

5.00am - Reached back, Went to bathe etc..

6.00am - Finally slept

9.00am - Woken up by uncle's call, had to go collect my car..

10.00am - Went to Bukit Metajam, Started packing stuff..

1.00pm - Back at USM, carried my extra things from my car to my room

3.00pm - Drove to Batu Feringgi to meet friends..

5.00pm- Trip canceled dew to rain, drove back

6.00pm - Waited at Uni Gate again..

7.00pm - Went out with CF Group to KFC, Didn't eat.. just watched them..

7.30pm - Went with LY, Hui Ling, Carl, Tim to eat Hakka mee.. Ate sth else instead.

9.00pm - Finally home!! But I decided to call up Vern and read my novel finish before sleeping

11.59pm - My long new year celebration ends =)



Happy new year all =P


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Thinking about new year resolutions.. I've decided that it's not always important to have NEW resolutions. Not always necessary to have NEW ideas in your life. If the old ones worked, Keep them!

08 has been a rather dynamic year from me, spending the first half bumming and the next in uni!

But I think it has been a good year.


Thus, my new year's resolution? 




To keep up my last year's resolution =)